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And guarantee a source divine.

27 Nov

There’s a lot I want to talk about. Loads and loads of things, I’d thought ’em all out, I wanted to talk about my top 3 lyricists, the mystery of the missing hair bands that led me to make a new one out of golden ribbon, which I wear all the time now, the fact that FatDog turned four a few days back. I want to talk about all of that. But, currently I’m a little busy marveling at my lack of reaction.

My complete lack of any kind of reaction to the fact that one of my friends was in the hospital. To the fact that he has something which is incurable  To the fact that I’m one of the only few people who know, mostly ’cause he needed my “logical” opinion on something. The fact that i’m not having any reaction of any kind. Wow. This is something that’s bothered me ever since my grandpa asked me if I even miss MM. After I got over the anger, i thought about it. I don’t cry. When everyone sits together, and conversation (as always) turns to her, and everyone cries, I don’t. I’m the one who’s staring at the floor, feeling awkward. I don’t sit and miss her and cry. In fact I try not to think about her. This would make sense if I was an inherently emotionless person, but I’m not. I’m one of the most emotional people I know. Till last year I used to cry a lot. ALOT! So this is kind of disturbing, now that I’ve noticed it.

It’s like I’m immune to all kinds of pain now. Like sad pains. I distinctly remember shedding a tear last month when mom got all in my face, so I still get angry/frustrated.

Huh.

This is certainly interesting.

Placebo – Blind

(I’m on such a Placebo rush these days! When I’m not listening to Flo Rida. 😐 )
(^ I’ll elaborate on that later)
I know I broke it.

 

Someone Call the Dream Doctor!

16 Jan

I really need a dream doctor, you know the kinds who analyse dreams and all, and tell you what your dreams mean. Cause i’ve been dreaming about aliens. Alot.

Not that i only see aliens, i have dreams of Alien Invasions, that they’re attacking earth and i need to save my family. Not the people of earth though,  I’m sorry but I ain’t no hero, saving my family is enough for me. And not once or twice, I’ve had the same dream 4 effing times! WTF is going on! and its scary, cause at that time you don’t realize you’re in a dream, so i actually feel like i’m fighting them and its so scary, and i have a gun and everything, (which is so amazingly cool! ) and i’m doing karate and ninja and kicking alien ass, but still WHY!

And the worst part is that i always wake up before i get to know how the war ended, generally i’m able to save my family so that’s really cool, but i need to know why only Aliens, is this some sort of premonition? are we going to face an alien attack soon? have i become psychic? (awesome!!!!) . Though, i guess Aliens are better than sharks any day, cause we have cool aliens like the ones in Thor, so that would be fine. I guess, if they don’t kill anyone.

I guess what every doctor would say would be something along the lines of how i worry for my family so much and always want to save them and BS like that. But that is so not effing true, i mean, sure they’re my family and i live with them , but i’m positive i was born into the wrong one. Or maybe they picked up the wrong kid from the hospital. that could be the case, I’ve heard it happens a lot!

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oh yeah, on another note, i’m going to start learning how to play the guitar today. on my own via YouTube ( thank god for YouTube), I’ve had that thing for 2 years now and i guess its about time i learnt how to play it.